Beautiful appearance

Beautiful appearance, Let me laugh. I don't please myself but I seem to please others My own appearance is like a knife in a wound Hurting while facing a mirror, or sitting "You're fine" Sure. Beautiful appearance, the want. Sometimes I feel that it's eating me alive. I care, I don't, I care and I don't again. Don't know how much longer I can keep this going. I'm pretty Maybe not, yes maybe. I look confident, don't I ? Beautiful appearance,  I feel bad I feel fine I want to change I don't want to change Whatever I want these thoughts Come and go And there is nothing I can do about it.