Bad Thoughts

Do you still love me? You talk about our future You act like we are nothing Am I a burden? You welcome me with kindness You act like I don't belong Why do I deserve to live? I try to always act kind and stay quiet While others act cruel and yell at me Why do I hate myself? I try to keep it down So nobody can see But you always find a way to make me bring it back up The bottle breaks The emotions pour out Can I be happy? Everyone is happy While I suffer In silence I wanna die? I wanna live? I want to die but also live at the same time These emotions and feelings make it hard I don't deserve to be here I'm Sorry Shouldn't have done that I started to think Bad Thoughts again. . .