bad day dreams.

Times ticking by on the long days when it doesn't fly , in the early hours of dawn I sit alone and wonder if my reason and will is really gone , I know I'm broken and don't know if I can ever be "your" right again . I feel almost nothing there alone in the Grey stale light , please God turn the clock back this is not what was supposed to be , I know I'm not the man I was supposed to be , all I am is what you see , no bullshit no no hidden surprise, forgive my soul if i can't look you in your eyes , dont sit and stare and tell me you care , don't tell me it's easy anyone can do this don't you fuckin dare , this road I chose is not for the faint of heart and beware it will tear you down and take you apart and smash your little heart , someday someway I will be free I will walk away on some sunny fine day , Hand in hand we will live and this time I won't watch you go and this time maybe my tears will show , please don't just say no and I will never change , don't let us die and not give it one last try . I must leave then do as you will but remember how I feel and know that my love for you has always been for real , with time I guess my heart will heal .