attentionless

i sit in my nice room. I don't think I just sit idle I feel every sensation. now I sit and start to thinkin why are there so many people drinkin why is there so many people violatin. why am I thinkin. depression, I'm lonely I'm blind im voiceless I'm tired I'm sick I'm dying I'm now a zombie, father can you hear me calling, father can you see me cryin father why is everyone dyin. father grandpa grandma uncle aunt. why is this life lyin. why is it this way I'm feelin my life is without attention where am I to be talkin so many others are dyin so many others are violated. what am I supposed to be facin maybe I should be runnin. maybe I shouldn't be thinkin. im so far gone I don't care for anymore attention I'm gone that all I've been thinkin. its me that gave myself no attention. its time for a realization. get out of depression.