Athlete

wasted time. that's how it feels sometimes. all the hours spent on practicing, trying over and over again without seeing any results of improvement. all the tears, all the injuries and all the fear of not being enough. I should've started it younger-that's what i always say. cause maybe it wouldn't be so hard and i would be so much better now. or it would be more of a wasted time? but why can't I improve as fast as she can? is it because she started it when she was younger? why can she do that and I cannot? does it worth it? do I even have a chance? so many pointless questions. and why? because i'm scared. scared of wasted time.