Aspiring to relive

I wish I could remember the old me, I wish I could go back to who I was, I miss the old version of me , Me before the heartbreak, Me before losing....me, The old version of me seemed very excited, The old version of me seemed more happier, The old version of me seemed untroubled. This new version of me is the worst, This version of me is broken, This version of me just turned out to be something I never could've imagined, This version is definitely strong..that's great, But being strong is kinda tiring, Having to endure the pain alone is heavy, Having to go out face people with a very untroubled face is a lot to handle, Put on a mask on you face which is your smile, Pretending it doesn't hurt, Knowing very well it cuts through the core, And you definitely not coping on your own People judging your actions not really knowing where that came from, Not knowing the reason that led you to acting the way you do now... People seeing you wearing that smile of yours thinking you doing great and untroubled and all,... I mean duh! No one really wants to look like their problems, Or do they.?.. EXACTLY.! I really miss the old me, I might not really remember how the old version of me was but I'm def sure she was at peace.