Ashe's of my former self

down deep down in the water I went trying to figure out how to wash away from the Ashe's of my former self deeper down than before the light turns in to darkness Pretty soon realized why I have been running from the daylight I'm a sinner and a sinner life has been living love the poison taste of being that person who was never shown any mercy forgotten by most find myself loving wanting to wash away from the Ashe's of my former self and running from the daylight tried to be a person who has good in their soul someone who wears a smile with hidden sins of a past life God show me the light when there's darkness Don't leave me give forgiveness for what I have done have mercy on me lord I keep telling myself it's the very last time deeper down than before I go try to wash it all away yet fighting to remain the same and be able to be a good person who has kindness in their heart and a smile on their face try to wash it all away yet still Comes to the surface the same that person who's running from the daylight who loves the taste of poison of trying to wash away from the Ashe's of his former self.