As the rain falls

As the rain falls I wonder if I should call I am sitting here deep in thought And all I feel is exhaust My brain is empty Yet I overthink about plenty I can't sleep nor write Is this some kindoff fight? When I think,it hurts Wishing I was searched It feels like a mountain on top off my shoulders As I am getting older I had it all figured out But now,now there is just doubt Does that mean I am a failure Or is this just bad behaviour? If only I knew That raindrops can mean so much to you These are the days Where I put on a fake happy face