As I Question My Truth

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel Relief, grief , defeat, peace or to just forget I figured there's steps to this 'thing' Yet here I am confused Am I getting better? Should I continue this way? What is healing anyway? Forgetting the person you once loved? Abandoning the feeling of love for someone? Accepting you failed and finding peace out of it? I thought when you love you don't give up... Yet here I am healing from something I didn't want to end I didn't choose this I don't want to be healing When I could be in love with my love But I want peace too So what should I do? © Melody