apologies.

the feeling of regret in me is undescribable... I know I went too much and I'm sorry... I didn't know it would affect you like that.... but what's done has been done.... this emptiness inside me right now is unbearable... I want to rest... the kind of rest where I don't open my eyes kind of rest.... but I can't right now I just want to sleep.... maybe I can escape this feeling. I want to get out of here, I want it soo bad but I don't know why.... no matter how hard I try I can't get out. it feels like someone is holding me back.... sorry if I ever treated you like that I didn't mean it I'm sorry.... I could have known better... i know it will hurt you cause I've been in that situation before.... but yet I still did it sorry.... maybe in another life I can treat you better.....