Apart of Not Apart From

Isolation, My go to place when things get hard. Drifting away from not just society but the world, my world has always been my Trump card. Seeking answers to the chaos, in the chaos of my mind. Has kept me apart from the things in this world im looking to find. Like love, companionship or a soul that can touch mine. Or something that can give me the same feeling that I get when I make 2 sentences rhyme. But the preset of my nature looks for it all within. This far down the line it makes sense why I haven't got my win. How can I search within for something I dont know. How can a flower that doesnt know the sun expect to grow. Surely not from within for I dont have what I need. The necessary ingredients to sow my seed. So for today Il seach outside of all that I am for all that im not. Il give being apart of and not apart from my best shot