anxiety and depression

TW: Thoughts of suicide implied, heavy depression topics, hallucinations, manic behavior from BPD, fast paced why do I have to live life no one understands how hard it is taking medication to fucking fix nothing temporary relief temporary release permanent pain permanent depression why do I get up? no one loves me! that's what my own voice says as it pushes me down and I'm stuck in my own mind. I hear sounds no one else does it's the hallucinations again FUCK FUCK FUCK I have to help others still they know I'm exhausted they have to see how I'm barely just barely together I just laugh maniacally just to feel slightly better at all therapy is a temporary fix. EVERYTHING WE DO IS FUCKING TEMPORARY ALL TEMPORARY. AS I FALL INTO O B L I V I O N . by Xander(He/They)