another trigger

A storm is coming, my chest is tightening and it's hard to breathe. Like a giant noose, life is smothering me. I would do anything to not feel this pain. Make it stop, I want to laugh again. The thought of being scared is so frightening. Another trigger, it's happening again; is everyone watching? Everything matters, nothing matters, my life will be ruined again. Paralyzed, afraid to move, the walls are closing in. Everyone has disappeared, they think I don't care. Truth is I don't want to be alone; I am so scared. Please be patient, I know I can be withdrawn. I need all of you more than ever; I'm not really gone. Grab my hand, I can feel the ground; please don't let go. Having you with me helps more than you will ever know. Let me talk, let me be silent, listen either way. Thank you for understanding; I think I can make it another day