an apology

To my dear fighter, A warrior. I'm sorry that our favorite spot became the dark. I'm sorry that you cry every single day and night of your life. I'm sorry that you're lonely and that no one has your back. I'm sorry that you show up for them and they never show up for you. I'm sorry about mom and dad. I'm sorry that you push away every guy that you've loved. I'm sorry that you're most said and hated line is "I'm fine". I'm sorry I lied and made empty. promises that you'll be fine. I'm sorry I let him take away the one thing you were proud of. I'm sorry for letting them talk to you and treat you like you were nothing. I'm sorry for the mood swings I'm sorry for the lost sleeps I'm sorry for the moments you couldn't stop eating. I'm sorry I let them get into my head. I'm sorry that you haven't left yet but soon you will. I'm sorry that I let you make the wrong choice. I'm sorry I am weak. I'm sorry I'm scared. I'm sorry for everything bad thing that has ever happened to you I'm sorry for how messed up you turned out to be I'm sorry for asking you for another chance. I'm sorry for I might not get it right again but this time around "whatever it takes" I will get it right. you're a fighter and I love you a lot.