an alive death

I reach out the sky but I can't touch it I didn't have dinner yesterday but I was looking for something to eat in the morning Tears upon the cheek in their way of dream Haunted by fate but crossed heart to survive Don't want to get too attached Knowing it will disappear Yesterday she was a brilliant star today she is a withered flower Haunted by fear by traumas by blaming eyes God protectes . They ruin U Weren't ready to love and overlove And I wasn't ready to be hurt The floor was crumbled as i walk Live in fireplace to keep me warm and safe they say Burnt till suffocated If I was a girl in a book this life would be easier I would absolutely give you the moon but it s not mine to give I want to plan flowers under your pillow so you will smell like red velvet like lily of the velly but it s not a place where flower could live Walking through the streets alone but not lonely I only have the true feeling of myself when I am unbearably apathetic Born to die and smoke to heal Twisted lies on diaries Sadly realise the first sight of the beginning is the wish to die Congrats you re alive