am I the bad daughter?

why is it that I did everything for you I did the dishes I took care of the dogs I took care of myself I didn't bother you I did everything that I could possibly think of to get you to love me but it's still not there I'm still left alone why are you still around if you aren't going to love me why are you still around if you aren't going to care for me I know you didn't want me that did I have to go through suffering for you to get the hint that all I wanted was love from my father who I craved to be around am I the bad girl for running away when you went through my phone that day and seeing how I called you homophobic and how I was bisexual and by the bad daughter for running down the street and vans shorts and a t-shirt because I was scared of how you would react am I the bad daughter for being terrified of her dad and by the bad daughter that you lost your voice for the next week cuz you shouted at me am I the bad daughter for being scared to talk to you about anything you don't care when cheers run down my cheeks why were you still with me why couldn't you have just abandoned me I would have preferred that then you sticking around and making me go through suffering am I the bad daughter for simply existing