am I really ok

Life is so fragile. People die, live, grow and fade Shining or dull in the foreground or background Why don't I feel sad What is wrong with me Do I really feel this way or have I just convinced myself about this way I should feel Or maybe this is normal for me I regret not being there when you left Now I have another choice I don't want to have to give support to someone I spend time alone but I enjoy time with others Am I really OK?