Am I broken?

Everyday I awake "Turn a new leaf" And with every breathe I take A hint of depression released "But how will I get it done like this" The thoughts ring as I drown in A sigh of despair! As every ounce of happiness spared Is shattered by the question, Am I broken? Hours flew then I think "Maybe I do have a chance" But as I lay flat, beside the wrinkled sheets I realise, it was all but a lie! That I never existed when alive For I live a life where nothing's history A life of delusions and misery, Am I broken? I can't take this anymore Life's kicking me out the door "Bye your time's done and you couldn't run" Then hope creeps in "Maybe I am the prize" But it all sunk, for I realised, How they buy me at a low price! So I lay down with my eyes closed And I begin to fall, Relapsing into my blackhole! Am I broken?