Am i?

Am i running towards things i was meant to hide from, run from When i finally catch up with it, will it endanger me in any form? Is there still time to hide? can i still run? Am i taking things i was never meant to perceive? If offered, i was never meant to accept, receive. Will the aftermath cause me any harm? is there still time to seek help? should i raise an alarm? Am i seeing things i was never meant to dare to imagine? Am i creating my fantasies, hallucinating, am i seeing heaven? Alive but am i ever going to see the beauty in living? Am i ever going to ask these questions again? Am i?