Always The Therapist

Always the helper, but never the helped. Always the supporter but never supported. Why try to help them when I cant even help myself? Relationships that always fall to me. help them stay together… Why am I helping them in their broken relationships? I can't be there forever. A couples counselor is what I am. A therapist to be weighed upon. No respect to me. My feelings don't matter. Do they? I'm hurt, I'm broken, I'm unlovable. The voice in my head screams. I feel sympathy of course, why my friends? always my hands to keep our group together? I try. And try. And try. always me. It's me who gets the downfall. I'm the therapist, and I will always be the therapist.