always second

Always second never first I wish I could get rid of this curse no matter how hard i try I never seem to fly in eveyones eyes i need no help they wish to see me fail and burn out they don't understand how much it hurts when no one trys to bail Me out they won't even let me pout I'm tried of always being second when I am first it's always for the wrong resosn! only one person makes me feel first I feel so guilty it's like a curse why do I have to always impress I feel like I'm such a mess