Always brainwashed

Listen! No matter how hard you try Or what you do He will never love you! All this competing is simply fleeting! There's nothing you can do! So stop trying! Stop doing! He will never love you! You're too late! Too young! You missed out on all the fun! "It's s just your emotions," he says; "your autism makes you feel tenfold!" I think I know in my heart when I know I've struck gold. But I was too late, too slow. Another made it before I could have a go. So here I am, always giving my best, in hopes that one day, you'll realize I'm best. Fully knowing that that's not what you'll feel for me