Always

I still yearn for you, miss you. Like I always did and knew I always would. But this time, there is no going back. You are gone, a faded memory in the black. Its been years, and I still feel the same. I should have moved on and play a different game. But loving someone else seems impossible. The wamrth you brought out of me, the affection I thought was long lost. Its now gone once more, lost in the frost. Your light so warm and healing. Now gone once more, the shadows and doubts revealing. Your words so soothing and kind now nowhere to be found, it makes me lose my mind. All those thoughts you held away, come back more violent. I wonder if I can ever move on, find you in someone else. It's laughable if not pathetic, tho I desperately hope to find you again. If not in this lifetime, then in another.