Always.

if... I could compare my life with a word, it will be the word "always". I relate a lot to the word "always" because, ...I am always the poet, never the poem. always the writer, never the book. always the musician, never the music. always the artist, never the muse. always the weak, and never the strong. always the average, and never the smart. always the good, and never the better. always the "I'm fine", even though I'm not. always the "I don't need help", even though I do. always the "I can get through this", even though I actually can't. but despite all of these "always...", I actually love being... the poet, the writer, the musician, and the artist. I am also fine being the weak, the average, and the good. or always saying "I'm fine.", "I don't need help.", "I can get through this." but I also wish that maybe sometimes, someday, my life will be the opposite, or the other side of my always. even just once, just to feel that everything is not the same as ...always.