alone in anger

How to describe the feelings of rage I have hidden inside buried down down down until there's no possible way to feel it anymore you're there and you're not I'm pissed at you and I've accepted who you are who you were always meant to be you are no longer a part of me as much as I am no longer hidden in your bedroom hidden because you didn't think me good enough to share with the world. if only I'd have been thinner or prettier something more of a trophy someone to cook and clean for you someone that lacks only that of the title, "Mom" I cannot be so traditional I won't be you thought I'd break my back just to walk on my palms for you I couldn't and I wouldn't. I don't know how to feel because part of me wants you back, but only the good parts of you the smiley ones the cute ones the parts where you really loved me and the other parts want nothing to do with you anymore the parts that got yelled at scolded and called names because you fought like a child. because you were a child. you haven't grown up and you won't for years to come but at some point, you'll realize all the mistakes you have done