Alone Again

After being replaced One too many times I started to push them away  If I ever tried  I will live in fear  That they will leave too  When I ghosted everyone  It didn’t even hurt  From the inside, out I couldn’t have normal conversations  It was just ways to keep them alive  It became too much Now that it’s been a few months  I seem happier  I still have my relapses  I still have my bad days  But at least I don’t need them To heal or destroy me