Almost a love story

I've fell in love so many times, Most were hopeless and others almost reached the finish line, In school or outside i found love in many ways, Unbelievably i found love in so many different place, Yet there something that i slowly notice, In every guy my heart falls to, It feels like I'm in a book ever so flawless, I wonder if this is just a figment of my imagination, Perhaps a thought i misunderstood, But all the love i found could almost be successful with just a bold action, But i remained there as thoughts started to flood, Now i wonder if i should've been more confident, Letting my heart speak at least, Yet my mind chose to be confidant, Cause these emotions feels like a beast, Maybe i could have gotten a boyfriend, It would be possible if i tried more, But i remember i can live without being in a relationship cause the world isn't gonna end, And maybe those people i met wasn't the love i was meant for,