all that he is

they never tell you that sometimes it feels like you're dying. that you're going to miss him in ways you thought you never wanted him but no strings attached because you can feel he loves you you even feel the influence of his love for you though, that could never hold you over to be with him... how could that be? what if I end up breaking him or better yet, what if I break myself? I miss his hands on my skin I miss his attentiveness I miss his lips on my body I miss his whispers in my ear I miss the look in his eyes I miss the space that our bodies interlock I miss him. what if I love him but I cant promise forever? what if I dont want forever with him? I can see the whole world but with him, I just see an apartment his kids his native island his language his age what if that's not what i want for myself? and what if that's not enough? what if im not enough?