ALIVE BUT NOT LIVING

How can I find success when I'm a kid losing my way When I have no motivation regardless of whatever you try to do or to say I'm in my bed at night but can hardly sleep Battling my thoughts which make me feel as if guys like me are beneath And can never rise Who also fall over easily when you tell them so step aside No determination to even fight Especially when you feel defeated and as if you have died multiple times in a single life