alive

I just started taking my medication I dulls the ache i feel inside. Part of me hates it because all of this pain Reminds me that you were alive. Swallow two pills every evening Helps me get some sleep at night. I want to remember and want to forget How to love and hate at the same time. You left me here by your choosing You left me here by your own hand. We are twins but now not in the same place. I guess i just don't understand. You called me the friday before it. You said "hey, sis i love you so." I didn't know then but you made up your mind And decided it was your time to go. Can i ask what the hell you were thinking? Leaving us broken like this. Your pain while gone now has been transferred I think you forgot you'd be missed.