Alchohol

Alchohol just makes me feel better Imagine going through life without memories without rememberance Then maybe my mind wouldn't be racing each and every moment asking why they treated me like so Then maybe I wouldn't having this constant feeling in my chest like sth is twisting inside the constant feeling of being chocked Imagine going through life not seeing and hearing what people do That's what alchohol does for me 14 days sober and 14 days I've cried I wish I'd cry myself to sleep But my mind it attacks me in my dreams too I get two hours of rest before I wake up drenched in sweat with all this anger inside I still have to smile and act like everything is fine let me just take a sip for the sake of my heart let me take a sip just to numb it down for a while Before I wake up tomorrow with no memories of the previous night hoping I could devour this mountain of emotion while all I have is a cigarette in my hand