afraid

If you just knew how much I wanna tell you. So many thoughts and feelings, but I don't wanna lose you. So it's better if I keep everything myself if it means I could lose you. Even though it hurts, I will be quiet, suffer alone. Because I would rather lose myself than to lose you. You're so goddamn important to me that I would rather walk on glass pieces, drink rat poison, take a bath in lemon juice after I got lots of cuts, get tortured and walk through fire than to lose you. I hope that you will get the hints I give to you, that you tell me you love me too, that we last forever. But I just keep on hoping without getting my wishes fulfilled.