Addiction

Dear addiction, I wonder what my life would look like without you My father consumed by the high only actually being "himself" after his dose of weed for the hour I wonder how my poor little cousin would be like, one of my best friends being only 12 with alcoholic tenancies, she says "i don't understand why my parents think i do this shit to look cool, it just helps you know?" almost everyone has their dirty little secrets with addiction, even me I've held my addiction tighter than anyone else as ever held onto me I remember promising myself 2 years ago that I would never touch it because of all the hurt it caused to me but damn its so good I can't stop im done trying to quit sincerely, a 15 year old addict