addicted

my God is faithful when I go astray he causes me to be afflicted. seems I'm never on the right path. I lost my identity again I'm so addicted. I cry to God please Lord save my soul don't count me with the wicked. count me with the ones vindicated not the ones that are vindicted. in my addiction I learned a lot but stayed in places that were smelling like a sewer. I learned your word it's in my heart I hate the fact that I'm hearer and not a doer. I can't believe my life right now I'm living life like I'm a beginner. I should be living like a saint by now. but still living like a sinner. I'm responsible for so much pain and chaos in this time that I've been given. can't wait to make the proper changes can't wait to call my life living.