aching on my torn knees

Dear Lord, I am aching, my heart is screaming in pain. It aches & pains as it's filled with anger, self punishment. Dear Lord, I have built a wall around myself. I can no longer I will no longer shelter behind a false image. I can no longer bare it Lord, I must escape before…. I'm sorry Lord. I will flood it, I will connect back to reality. I will… I will always have you in my heart, Lord, when it gets dark. When it gets Bright. When it gets cold. When my heart weeps from my actions & emotional setbacks. When I'm in need of your guidance from evil. When I'm in need of strength I will always reach for you. Lord I am for forgiveness not for an aching heart, a simple mistake. I am lost in my journey, Lord. I ask for your forgiveness to walk my path the way you have paved it.