Abba, to whom I belong

My Baba, You know my everything. You know that sometimes, even in happiness, I forget you. And yet, Baba what is it that makes you love me still? This feels harder than any punishment. Why don’t you make me the way you want me to be? I do not have greed. So more than giving me everything, give me what my heart longs for. I want you, Baba. If you do not wish to show your face, that is alright. But please, just once hold me in your arms. I want to know how it feels to be protected. Just as you wanted me to understand your love and to belong only to you, I too see myself as only yours. There is no one who can ever come between us. Baba, I do not know your plans. But please, never plan me to be married away. I see no man in my life except you. I cannot love anyone more than you. Even though I may not be up to your mark, please never let me fall away from your sight. One day, when I am clear and ready, when you choose to reveal yourself to me, I dream of spending one full day with you from morning till night in human form. Because, I long to see you baba.