abandonment

willingly you abandoned me Just like everyone else I thought you were different maybe loved me an ounce I guess I was wrong I see it clearly now you loved me when I was happy but not when I was down everyone's got issues but mine are worse to you I'm too much to handle and don't deny it, I know it's true I think im enough, just not for you I'm enough for myself so I'll move on too I wish you still loved me I wish someone could but I'll always hurt the ones who love me more than they knew I could why won't someone stay through my bad and my good why can't I be enough for anyone other than God. even for him I'm not enough I can't do it on my own he's my strength my rock my foundation my one and only true friendship I know God loves me I know he does but why is he the only one why cant that satisfy my eager soul I want someone to love me who's part of this world. God created relationships as part of this universe Adam was sad so God created a partner I want that kind of love, one like Joseph and Mary I want a love that's true, pure and holy God is the only one who I need and yet I still don't feel happy