A world of pain, and wishes

Now I breathe loss, and it hurts like hell, Forever forgotten locked away in a cell, Heartbreak and agony is where I dwell, Is it because I tried, or is it because I fail Did you really love me cause I couldn't tell, My dreams are like roses who have lost their smell. Suppression of desire has me in its grasp, The passion I have for you wouldn't last, I suffer in agony from the pain of the past, It's like my heart hides in the shadows wearing a mask. Greedy eyes have lustful desires,  Relationship burned away into fires, It wasn't me you were a liar,  You cheated and the flames burned higher, But the memories of you never tire, My life is lost without my heart, I need someone now, a new start, Forever together, and never apart, I still hang onto hope,  Am I dumb for wanting this or am I just living in a world of bliss?