A Wandering Soul's Reality

I lost myself in creating a false perception of myself Truth be told if life was a book I would burn every page I had to put on a facade just to feel comfortable—just to fit the stereotypes, you see somehow everyone's perception and expectations have some how molded this false reality . I can no longer feel myself, its like my heart is an emty void, hollowed out by YOU. You DEMON!!! Years of this facade have created an impenetrable barrier making it almost impossible to feel and experience the feelings I once longed to kill. I have achieved the initial goal at the cost of my true self, everything that made me unique—so far from my grasp. Yet somehow I am constantly bombarded with a plethora of emotions and thoughts flooding through my mind leaving me stunned and depressed, with no hope of moving forward— This is the part where he comes in; my false perception, the YOU in my story; he like a hero numbs my feelings and cease the floods in my mind. So you see he isn't the villain of this story, he's my shoulder to lean on when im overwhelmed, he is my shield in a war of thoughts and feelings, HE is ME and I am HIM.