a thousand degrees

I met u i entered in this unrealistic beautiful dream but why is it still a thousand degrees? Anxious, Body sweating profusely yet u know just how 2 touch me, I'm watching u watching me, under pressure I practiced enough 2 show u i can stay calm, I count to 3. Smiling back even though u don't ever see my burning recurring memories actively killing me' So Ill sing, we joke again, Laughing with you i now kno what those fluttering butterflies be' a reminder i'm not truley dead inside you see u see, do u even see?? Annoying ik. Don't mind me, when I ask so desperately repetitively is me i'm trying hard to convince until Ill eventually start to believe' Bby ive been walking in thousand degrees dragging my feet but believe Ill always quickly run to u to evaporate ur high waters if u ever Drown in your haunting reoccuring misery. My love is true converting you to a fish to a bird high n a tree. My soul turning to ash through ur hands, u made it look so easily. u got a grip & naturally started painting darkness into my inner solar peace' I'm in a dream. Can't believe your looking at me. Even when the flames rise again heavy smoke' i can't fuckn breathe' Turning blue' losing myself its only you i want to keep