A Teenagers Lament

Darkness Finally Engulfs me.. Fully Awake, A Lone Creature Of The Night, My Days Overwhelmed By The Sleep I Crave, But Never Achieve. Is My Bedroom A Sanctuary Or Prison? How Come I'm Different? Why Am I Different? Is This Really Me? Didn't I Always Used To be Happy? What's Happened To My Life? I Didn't Ask To Be Depressed, Why Me? I Only Wanted To Be A Normal Teenager! I Used To Sing, Now I Only Cry I Loved To Dance, Just Too Much Effort! Where Are My Friends, My True Friends Not Those Who Blank & Avoid Me Mum Just Shakes Her Head & Sighs Then Retorts " She'll Grow Out Of It" I Used To Be A Daddy's Girl.... Now He's Scared Of My Outbursts Ok So I Don't Shower Every Day It's Just Too Much Effort These Days My Nails Once My Pride & Joy Are Now Broken, Just Like My Heart! I Count The Cuts on My Arms Two More Than Yesterday Must Be Self Cutting In my Sleep? Must Keep Then Covered In Front of Mum Who Cares? I used To! Who cares Now? Nobody Does! It's Just Me & My Depression! Somebody, Anybody, I Just Need To Talk!! © The Poetic Dinosaur🦖