a silent scream

Hey I know u think I'm alright You only see me from your eyes Spiritually I'm out there drinking Causing real harm for my insides When I'm sitting looking fine I'm thinking ways to end it all Some people think I got it all But really I own scars inside I'm trying to up my level Drop everything bad for me Searching firm evidence Knowing it'll make it even worse How do people quit that thought Feels like it's just a bad story If escape really existed I'd be living recklessly -vervainn