A Sickness

I feel sick but not the *cough cough* sore muscles type of sick this sick resides deep inside maybe it was always there and has just made itself known maybe its a new sick that ive learned to experience all i know is when i think of those times my stomach twists and turns i feel like throwing up but i cant my lungs hurt and im sick it only shows itself in the late night hours when im about to rest and the world is quiet yet i wake up like nothing has ever bothered me in my life and i go back to work im so so sick