a new life

how do I disclose that i have been betrayed since birth my existence seemed like a burden as I got older the quicker I realized that I was an inconvenience, I thought I was undeserving of happiness and all I attracted was darkness, my heart was cold but still I felt everything, I was tired of feeling blue all the time, I prayed to God to take my life, but he didn't , thank you Lord for taking this darkness inside me, I no longer feel blue