a love that's just not true

she said she loves me I told her I don't believe her she asked me how I could tell I mean I don't even love myself for that reason I could never be loved I need to find myself before I can be found I need to see myself before I can be seen charity begins at home mine is chaos at the moment I need to clean it up perhaps I even need a cleansing to find true healing there's a lot wrong with me a lot that I can't fix myself it's about time I got the help that I need the help that no one is offering I just have to go and find it myself