A lonely star

Mind is meandering with thoughts tonight Wondering worthiness of breathing this dewy air? Drenched in this ceaseless tears of fright, Is all life just a stormy ride one is meant to bear? Sinking in a hole of bare existence with bursts of might, Is drudging through seasons with same sob story the way? Or pretending to be aplomb in this world full of fright? Maybe it's how our mind glances at this crossway! Sruggling in the cubicle feels like a failure in making Work invokes childhood trauma of feeling lonely and dumb Even the angel to pacify this anxiety is missing Thoughts muddled, heart sobbing & body enveloped by a cold numb Here, in the head, loneliness gives way to a void, Distracted mind with tenacious efforts to escape. Yet, in the end, everything is turning this loveless boy to a droid, Guess, nothing can change this morose landscape. Deception ruling the heart, carves deeper and beckons for death Only her tender warmth could soothe this lonesome behavior The screeching silence lends its hand to his last breath The innocous boy wasn't meant to be his own saviour