a dance

I've been feeling a little bit too much lately done with life done with the whole thing I've been feeling too much of the harshness want someone to make me laugh but got no one by my side my birthday coming up soon wish some one remembers cause I don't want to tell them wanna be in some kind of relationship where the world can be bright and shiny as it used to be but I am here scared for my life under my blankets lying to the my self saying I am OK it feels like a dance every step I take forward in life I fall back like it was never right it feels like a dance game one step to the front one step behind to be standing at the same spot it feels I don't care but I care too much as the same time trying to fit in the crowd to hard feels like a heart break but know I know that my soul is the one breaking pieces of me I am losing I dont feel the same I used to be some thing bright I used to be some thing great but I don't see the spark in my eyes that used to be there always now change is a hard thing well is another and lies go forever now I am changing to this new thing but it still feels like a dance a step forward then a step back to fall in the same pit where I was before