●°A careaholic°●(English ver.)

☆●°A careaholic is someone with a strong need to be needed who uses caring and helping in the same ways alcoholics use booze to slef-medicate a pain, or cope stress away.°●☆ I help people cause I like helping, right?? I don't know, but since I can remember, I've always wanted to help people. I've never really questioned it until now. I've realized that if I'm not helping someone or doing something to help someone. I feel like I don't have a purpose in life. I've always wondered what my purpose is in life, but it couldn't possibly be helping people, or could it ?? if my purpose in life is helping and loving people, who's going to help and love me?? am I unloveable since I care too much, or am I too loveable, which makes it suspicious. I'm not really sure, but what I do know is that no matter what happens, I'll keep caring for others even if it makes me more. Mentally ill. I don't care. I want to care for others. I want to care for others because I like helping. (or do i??)