41-50

41. I'll always hold close the New Year's Eve where I secretly sang to you and confessed my love. 42. Your smile is contagious. I feel lucky to have caught it. 43. You pushed me to be a better version of myself, and I'll always be grateful for that. 44. I still find myself saving little jokes in my head, forgetting for a second that I can’t tell you anymore. 45. I’d do it all over again, even knowing how much it would hurt right now. 46. I’m sorry for the times I let my own darkness spill over into your light. 47. You showed me a kind of softness the world desperately lacks. 48. I wish we could lay on a bed and talk everything through. 49. I have always known you to be beautiful, kind, and deeply caring. I’m so lucky you chose to open your heart to me. Your mind is an ocean I could get lost in. 50. I still hold hope in my heart that somehow everything works out.