3 am thoughts

3 am shackles of the sad episodes riding through all my mind I thought it would be like that at the start but now seems am in the second season am forcing myself to be happy the happiness isn't real it conceals gloomy thoughts of sadness am tired of feeling numb covering my self in 120 degree position the lost appetite, yet a growling empty stomach tired yet the heavy thoughts won't allow me sleep but at the end there is a spark a small ray of hope , after alll am facing penance of my own wrong choosing I find solace in healing, I'll step up and make a change am sorry life what have put you through @last son of the brown woman